Where were you?

i always look back and wonder what happened. what happened that made you change your mind and made you leave. what happened that made you put everything behind you so fast.

i miss those times receiving happy texts from you all the time. lots of smileys. our first time on a phonecall and it lasted almost an hour, just talking about anything and everything. the letter you wrote lies in my beside drawer, asking to be read again. your gift, and the effort and time. everything.

the places you'd said we'd go together, that id look forward to, we eventually never went. 

even though this has passed a long time ago, it's still something hard to let go. and sometimes im frustrated and mad, cause i trusted you to always be there.  but as they say, you can't hate someone without caring for them.

and after all this while im still foolishly waiting, ha

i'll be back

"i miss the taste of a sweeter life

i miss the conversation

i’m searching for a song tonight

i’m changing all of the stations

i like to think that we had it all

we drew a map to a better place

but on that road i took a fall

oh baby why did you run away?

i was there for you

in your darkest times

i was there for you

in your darkest nights

but i wonder where were you?

when i was at my worst

down on my knees

and you said you had my back

so i wonder where were you?

when all the roads you took came back to me"

-maps by maroon 5

-beth