Thoughts

Im scared..about the 'what ifs'. Im scared if my doubts will turn into reality.

Im drowning in all these thoughts and I don't know what to do

I really hope things will turn out good because Im really fucking scared.

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Friends you can trust are so hard to come by..I find it so hard to trust people and thats why I only fully trust people Im friends with for at least a couple of years.

I thought we were friends and you would look out for my best intention just like how I would look out for yours, but I guess you just didn't care

If we were truly friends why would I need to give you a 'valid reason' of why I was feeling anxious and uncomfortable with your decision? Why do you need to validate my emotions?

Im at the brink of tears and just ignore my feelings and simply go ahead with your opinion.

Our friendship will never be the same, and I don't care. Now you try to talk to me like before but thats too bad cause Im just going to reply as if Im talking to a stranger. My opinions about you have changed, because I had too much faith in you as a friend that would stand by my side, and now Im just going to ignore your attempts.You are not even apologetic and you crushed me. Nothing will be the same again for me and stop trying to make that happen while you place your ego and other less important people above our friendship. I don't even want to regard our relationship as a friendship, more like an acquaintance. The ship of our friendship has sunk and let me tell you..You were the one that attached the anchor that dragged it down.

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Thankful for my sister idk what Id do without her